So it's like everything is a haze. Everything with Chris is this thing that doesn't even seem very real to me anymore. When we were happy is this far off thing, some distant memory. And when it got bad, well it doesn't even seem like that was real anymore. It just kind of makes me sad. And now with Andy, it's like we've known each other for years, we're just that comfortable together. But I can't really remember things being this good... and so I am having so much trouble grasping this idea that I'm happy, that there are no problems, that this person feels the same way about me as I do about them. It seems so strange. I suppose that's what I meant by too good to be true. I feel like I'm in a dream, that I'm not really living at all. All these things have happened in this incredibly short time span. I'm having so much trouble knowing what to make of it. I am so wary of this happiness that I was not expecting. I think I may have unintentionally put up walls. I don't know. I am so confused... but I'm okay with that.
music. new kid - finch