Jesus. This is going to be a long post. Ok. Janelle's party was last Saturday. It was cool. My dad came home from being away in Kelowna for a few weeks. He brought me back this awesome giraffe pillow. It's green. I love giraffes so much. I will get a giraffe tattoo someday and it will be awesome. Um. Janelle's party went well. Josh and I met up with everybody at MGM where they were already wasted. I decided I wasn't drinking. I just friggin' hate drinking. It's not for me. So we all went to 70Below and I was pretty bored being the only sober one, so me and Josh went to get smokes and then we came back, then I had a better time, but managed to get Janelle pissed off at me. I suck. And I procrastinate super bad, and haven't even talked to her about it yet. Sorry Janelle. It's seriously so messed up when you wake up, go to work, and come home at like early hours of the morning. And I don't feel like apologizing over text messages. Anyways.

      So I decided I really wanted my sternum/cleavage pierced too. So I was going on and on about it, and finally Josh decided he was getting it for me for an early Christmas present. We went there on Monday and Tuesday but nobody was there to do it. Finally on Wednesday, we went and Roland did it for me. It was really weird. Not painful like any of my other piercings, but they basically punch these two holes in your skin and it's this immense pressure, and so you're just waiting for this pain to account for all the pressure but it never comes. It's just a really weird feeling having this piece of metal sitting up against your sternum. Anyways, I totally love it and showed it off to everybody later that night. Let's backtrack.

      On Monday, after failing to get pierced, Josh and I went to Vancouver to pick up Alyssa. We left on the twelve thirty ferry and didn't get there until four fifteen. Over four hours on the ferry! The waves were so big. Water was splashing up all over the front windows of the ferry. It was crazy. The swells were so big and it was SO windy. Josh and I went outside on the deck for a little bit and man, it was kinda scary, considering I am definately afraid of deep water. The ferry was listing so much, and then when we were docking, the ferry kept slamming into the sides of the docking area. When we were getting off on the passenger walkway, you could see it sliding up and down the deck. I was like, "ahh, get me off this thing!" Hahaha, so anyways, the trip just gets better. New paragraph.

      So, because our ferry is so late, and we're supposed to have picked up Alyssa half an hour ago, Josh and I are kinda in a hurry. We go and check the bus schedual and find out we missed the last bus by about two minutes. We can either wait an hour for another one (and probably not get home that night) or, my bright idea, we can hitch hike. I don't give Josh much of a choice-- we're hitch hiking. So we start walking in this gale force (not even kidding, Josh and I could barely walkk) down the road sticking our thumbs out at the ferry traffic, when after only like two minutes, this guy who is parked in the parking lots honks at us and waves us over. He, Jeff, seems pretty cool. Says he'll drive us to the airport. Things only go downhill from here. New paragraph.

      So I sit up front, and I'm trying to be super friendly and stuff. Josh is quiet and probably with good reason. This guy is fucking nuts! Turns out he just got divorced and has been sitting here watching the "beautiful" waves crash for about four hours. Pretty sure this guy has had a little too much drink, or it currently OD'ing on something. He's all over the map. He drives his minivan like a race car. We almost get in an accident at least five times. Still, I'm trying to be friendly so he doesn't flip out and kill us. Let me just give you the highlights. I'm laughing nervously and he's laughing with me and all of the sudden, he's like, "don't you ever stop laughing!?" really mean, he just snaps at me. It was scary. And then he was all happy again. At one point, he asks Josh, "Jason, (??) what's your favourite thing?" Josh has no fucking idea what he's talking about, and so Jeff suggests, "Love, happiness, nurturing?" He then asks us if we still have our dads and asks Josh if his dad tells him he loves him. Josh says not really, and the guy clams up and starts rubbing Josh's knee. He tries to teach me this phrase in Spanish that says, "Go with God." FINALLY, we arrive at the airport. Jeff says he'll wait right here until we get back so he can drive us to Horseshoe Bay, since we missed the last Duke Point ferry. He says he has nothing better to do. Did I mention he gave me and Josh sixty bucks? He asked us if we had any money and we said no, thinking he'd want some, and so he gave us sixty bucks and told us money didn't buy happiness. To make a long story short. We found Alyssa and got the fuck out of there. Jeff is probably dead. What a psycho. But hey-- we got a free ride to the airport and sixty bucks.

      The three of us bussed to Horseshoe Bay and Alyssa and Josh got stuck on the bus after I got off at our stop. Alyssa started screaming and I had to go to the next stop to get them. We caught the last ferry home. Alyssa slept at my house and I decided to go out with Olly for a while. We're in his car talking at Swylana, and I'm telling him I don't want a meaningless relationship, and he's telling me he doesn't want a relationship. I told him I'm not the kind of girl who likes to just mess around and he's like, really, because you have tattoos and are doing the SG thing, I thought you would be that kind of girl. Guess I'm one of a kind, eh? Anyways, I don't think I've seen him since then.

      Wednesday night was the staff party. We went cosmic-formal bowling. It was pretty cool. I drank and hit on Chris. Stupid me. I got second place, I am awesome at bowling. (not so much) Alyssa kicked everyone's asses. After bowling, we went to Chris' house where I drank some more. Which is such a chore, since I hate drinking. Sunk into the depths of despair over Chris and chilled out on the couch. He came and talked to me, and cried and it was really nice... at the time. He meant it on a friendship level, I took it on an I really love you still level. Ah, drinking, I hate you. So that ended... badly I guess. But hey, I'll live. Hahaha... funny story. Anyways, for secret santa, I got Keegan a fake vagina from Source Adult. It was awesome. It got fisted by EVERYONE. Keegan got me some awesome stuff, including strawberry penis candy! I slept over at Chris' and dealt with drunk Josh. (which is never fun)

      The next morning, I drove Alyssa back to P-Ville and it was mad-snowing. I could barely drive in it. Thank God that stopped. Driving in slippery slush is no fun either though. Andrew from Stock Exchangers is sooo cute. I have a mad crush on him. And I have never spoken a single word to him. He is so pretty. He checks me out hehe, I love catching him doing it. Um. Right, so at work the next day, I am totally choked about Chris and everything and it's intensified by my SADS (I hate that sounding like an excuse, I don't mean it to be that way, I'm just trying to explain.) and so I just flipped on him and told him I hated him and blah blah blah, no actually it was really bad and horrible. So he sent me home and some really bad stuff happened and I came back to the store and was totally just having the worst episode-- ever. Ever. Never had it that bad. Serioiusly considered admitting myself again. I ended up going home, even though I didn't want to. Too emotionally exhaused to do anything stupid. Thank God. Woke up feeling tired and still-- emotionally exhausted. What a bad, bad night. I really need to get some help with that because I can't deal with it by myself.

      Worked a close again tonight. Worked on my story/book/writing again. I really like writing. I like gettin everything down on paper. I just wish it didn't take so long. I wish everything that's in my head could just be on paper right now. The process is going to take forever! Anyways. So I'm a pretty good mood today. These polar opposites are fucking killer. I was so hyper today. Chris probably thinks I'm a total psycho. I stopped by Ian's Men About Town party and say Bryan. I love him. Also Adam, the man whore from the mall. He also is so pretty. Why does he have to be such a whore? Someday. Someday I will find a wonderful man and fall in love. Until then, I will-- "have a crush on every boy!"

      I bought my mom's Christmas gift today. A girl came into Domino's selling spa things and so my mom gets to go to the spa four times or something. Thank God that came along, because I had no idea what to get her. I definatly would like some photo stuff or a gift certificate to Chapters so I can buy some books, or tattoo, piericing stuff. You know. I'm not too hard to buy for. Not that I need anything-- I really don't. I can't believe Christmas is so soon. I seriously do not have any shopping done. Thank God for the way I get paid at Domino's, or I would be totally screwed. I have my next tattoo appointment on the twenty-second, hopefully I can pull that off. I really want my tat finished so I can started on a new one :) Idea's anyone. Right now, I'm really hooked on some sort of a working class tattoo. (again) Really bright colors with sparrows and some sort of machinery or something in the background with a banner that says "for the workforce united," or something. Thank you, Thursday. This post is fucking huge. Sometime soon, I'm going to do one of those what have you done this year and my new years resolutions. Oh, I got some good ones this year.

      Josh and I are going to take a new set of SG photos soon I think. I'm really excited about it. I want to get accepted so badly. Jarred asked me to do him a favour today that is rather risky. I was gonna do it, but he never called me back, which sucks, cause I really could have used the money. Anyways, my hands are tired and this is getting hard to type. 70Below tomorrow with Alyssa again! Yay, it's been such a long time. Also, I'm finally going to see Johnny Good play at Cyber City. I've never seen them before so I'm pretty stoked. Chris asked me to close tomorrow, but I am definatly not okay with that. I've had this Saturday planned for quite some time. In closing. Damien from Tranceformations is sexy. I love him, and I want him to put holes in me... he's a piercer... that's what he does. FUCKING GOODNIGHT!
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