So I just got home from Loren's, and found an e-mail from the people I sent the photos in to. They got rejected, I need better lighting and more angles apparently. That's cool with me. I wasn't super happy with the first ones, I was just eager to get them in. But we have a way better idea for the next set. Way way cooler, with more of a theme to it. Yeah, still with the can't-say-much about it. Never really know who reads this. People who would disaprove for sure. Maybe someday I'll announce.. when I'm moved outta my house haha, which hopefully will be (again) Jan/Feb with the lovely Lys.

      In other news, I got this burning desire to take hold and be in control of everything today. Don't settle for anything. Do only exactly what I want to do, and make sure things turn out the way I want them to. Be the first to leave, be the one that cares the least. Don't let anyone ever have any power over me. Always be in complete control of every situation. That all sounds horrible, but you can take it however you will. I'm sick of having my feelings walked all over and I realized it doesn't have to be that way. I just have to be the one that loves the least, where it matters.

      I started writing today. Just gotta make sure I keep going with it. Realized how much I was trying to hold on to a friendship with someone I don't even particularly like. Realized how easy I was getting by. Realized how I basically can't stand them. Don't ever let anyone control your feelings. Make sure you're always in control of your feelings. That's how I'm living for the next while at least. I know someday it will change when I meet the right person. But for now, the walls are going up.
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