So here's the thing I've realized. I want to say something to him everytime I talk to him. But I know I've said it all before and there is no use saying it again. So I don't talk about it. It hurts right now, but eventually it will hurt less. He likes somebody else. But then again, so did I. It's really pointless to be involved with anybody else for me. I just compare everyone to him. I know it's not gonna work out right from the beginning. I don't like doing things when I know they're pointless. So just takin' it day by day here. Trying to make the right choices. Sometimes they are really hard to make. Sometimes I feel like I'm not really getting anywhere at all. I hate winter, officially. Snowboarding doesn't even make up for how much I hate it. I think I'm going to go talk to someone about it.

      The mountain opened today. Sorta wanna go up soonish. Not loving the snow too much right now though. I don't like the grey skies, the way I never see any sunshine. It's bright out today, but it's this empty white kind of bright. I don't really feel motivated to do anything. Shaw called this morning and I got an interview at one on Monday. Should learn some computer stuff before I go to that. Hopefully i get a job there, it would be nice to be away from Domino's for a while. As much as I love it... it would be good for me to be away. My tattoo appointment is tomorrow. Black lining and coloring. Hopefully we can get into the coloring, provided I don't pussy out this time. I was sick last time. Fucking dammit. I fucking hate how I can't make decisions. I am so fucking angry or sad or whatever all the fucking time now. I can't stand it anymore.