I suppose what I'm afraid of is becoming a burden. I already feel like I am. Someone's been mad at me already for it. Someone's asked me to leave because they wanted to be alone. All I wanted was to be around someone. It sort of feels like you're going crazy when it's really bad, but when you're normal, you feel stupid about things you said and did. I feel like I'm following you around and like I'm the one nobody actually wants to see because they don't know how to act and they feel like they have to watch what they say. And when I'm really good, it's comes off as funny and weird and I know exactly what it's like to watch someone you know be like that. It's embarressing. I feel like I am taking everything and not giving anything back. I feel like an afterthought.
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