I didn't really realize what it was until today. It started again with my Dad last week. I didn't notice it or anything, he just brought it up and was talking to my mom about it and then he started using his light and taking the meds again. I noticed it was getting really hard to make that 'choice' about how I would feel everyday. It's like I am PMS'ing times ten everyday now. It only dawned on me tonight that it might start early this year. This is only my second year doing this. I'm really scared because last year it only lasted a week, and it was the longest week of my life. I'm scared of being on meds. And I'm really scared of going through this again. It just feels like everything keeps piling up on top of everything else. It feels hopeless and I am so scared.
music. stereo disease - the februarys