Okay, so. I was gonna be all pissed cause I didn't think my last night's post actually posted. But it did. So now I have some explaining to do. But first. I feel like I got hit by a goddamned bus. And it knocked all the food out of me, so I'm hungry. Fuuuuckkkk. I've been chewing the same piece of gum for about thirteen hours now. Pretty sure my jaw died at some point last night. I don't think I slept. Maybe a little.

      And explaining. So I was Wilma Flinstone. There was a costume contest and I told Em and Sean that I needed to money for my half sleeve so they totally fixed it for me. I feel bad. ...Anyways. I won a hundred bucks at Tranceformations. I met Salmon's/Matt's brother whose name I don't remember, and he asked for my phone number for Salmon cause apparently I'm the first girl Salmon's liked since he told his family he was gay or something. Ah, the joys of not having a care in the world.

      Kevin and Trevor from Stock Exchangers show up. Trevor is the 34 year old that hit on me two weeks ago. Turns out he's married and was hitting on me right in front of his wife. Who now wants to kill me. Goodtimes! I'm just a twenty year old homewrecker apparently. Lord, the trouble I manage to get myself into. So I was asking Kevin about the whole thing cause I was curious, and then Kevin goes on about how much HE likes me blah blah blah. So. That was interesting. Kevin is thirty-one. And scary. And he was dead, so that didn't help matters. I saw Trevor later that night and he gave me this little apologetic smile. Moving on.

      My dress was so short. Pretty sure everybody saw my bum. Olly came down after work. We danced. It was good. Really good. Uh, Alyssa was amazed by his AMAZING hot-ness(?) and after we discovered his tummy... well, she decided to ask me if she could kiss him and I said sure(??) and so she did and he's just standing there with this bewildered look on his face. We then remembered that they don't know each other, and that he is sober. He probably thinks we're weird now. So... Olly's a babe. Mhm. Bar closes. Staff are allowed to stay. Plus me. So everyone leaves. Me and Lys say no to shrooms. Em says yes. Em gets really high and proceeds to tell me how beautiful I am, and what a big crush on me he has. I love him, in the way that you guys would love me if I was a twenty-five year old black dude with a coke habit. Said no to that too.

      Yeah, me and Lys hang out with Sean and Emerson for the rest of the night. I am sooo tired, I am falling asleep on Emerson. Who is high. Everyone gets kisses. And I mean, EVERYONE. Don't think I've ever been kissed by some many people in one night! I wasn't kidding when I said I was messed the FUCK up. If I said that. Josh is pissed which I find annoying. Me and Alyssa go back to Brendan's house and sit around for about three hours talking about random stuff and watching his lava lamp. Which was strangely entertaining. We finally go home. It is light outside. I don't really sleep. I have drug-induced dreams.

      On side notes. Alyssa and I decided there has to be something totally wrong with Olly, because there's no way he just so happened to be single. I could go on? But we'll just leave it at... amazing/hardcore. The ocean is cold. Snake tattoos. And when you smile, your whole face smiles, and it makes me smile. And if anyone thinks (and you would be right to) that I'm 'moving on,' way too quickly, well I figure I was getting over him for the past four months where he didn't know what he wanted. This is super easy and it's great. Maybe we could have been friends, and I really would have liked to... you helped me become a way better person, but something about you changed. Well, a lot, actually. I hope I didn't cause it, because it's definately not a welcome change. But I sincerely, honestly hope you're happy and I wish you the best. In another life when we are cats, perhaps. Just thought I would put that out there, cause it's been on my mind too. Don't worry. I'm taking my time. I'm being careful.

      In closing. I am so scared because everything is changing. My best friend is moving to the other side of the country. My tattoo is haunting me already. I have to move out cause our house is going on the market. These changes never seem tiny to me. They always seem to come all at once. It's like, my whole life changes once every year or so, I drop everything and start something completely different. This time I am so scared because... I dunno, this time it's just more complicated and completly unexpected. I'm really worried. I am literally skin and bones. It's not attractive, and it's kind of scary. Think I'm gonna need some help in that department very shortly. So yeah. Those are sort of the big things in my life right now. And all of them are gonna change. I wish at least one of them was staying the same for a bit longer.
music. sleep - my chemical romance