You say think before you speak. But when I do, I can't get the fucking words out. So I let go, and start talking, and you don't even fucking answer. I want to know do you love me. Yes. Did you use me. No. But your fucking actions speak louder than words, and your actions say otherwise. You say I'm the one you can't trust, but you're the one hiding things from me. I'm giving you everything I have, and you're giving me NOTHING. I gave you EVERYTHING the other night, only to be ignored the next day. I feel so used, and it hurts so bad because you say you love me. But you can't do that to someone you love. You don't try to go out and hurt the one you love. You can't watch the one you love hurting, and turn and look away. I'm afraid to say anything because I don't want you to go. I let myself be walked over for fear of you leaving me. You say you love me? Fucking prove it. Because I don't have anything to prove to you. I'm fucking lost here. It doesn't add up. And now you're angry with ME because I'm confused over your FUCKED UP actions. What did you expect? Me to say, ok, don't actually care about me, just use me for your own selfish needs. My needs? For you to love me. Nope. Nothing. If you love someone, fucking BE WITH THEM. No, you're not going to go screw around with anyone else, and you don't want me to, you tell me never to cover up this tattoo. WHY? The person on the tattoo says he loves me, but won't fucking be with me, won't let me fucking touch him. Am I a fucking trophy you'll be able to tell your friends about years from now. Yeah, this girl STILL has my name tattooed on her because I tell her I love her. I got that to prove to you how much I loved you, how I would do anything for you. And at that time, you were thinking about how you're WEREN'T over what happened, and you still fucking let me do it. It doesn't fucking add up. Don't you dare get fucking mad at ME right now, because you are treating me like complete shit, and fucking stringing me along. If you don't want me, fucking tell me. If you love and me, then just fucking be with me. You are fucking me up. Ok, I seriously can't do this. I feel like shit. How the fuck can you do this to someone you love. I just want fucking straight answers, because I don't care what I did in the past, I don't fucking deserve this now. If this is your fucking revenge, then grow up and realize that you obviously don't love me, and you need to put your energy into something other than trying to hurt me back, NOW, after everything. You fucking asshole. THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU FUCKING DID TO ME. How could you? How could you fucking do that to me? I am so disgusted by what I am putting up with right now. This love is fucking bullshit. Stop stringing me along for your own selfish ego. If that's not what's going on, then you need to fucking show me, because you are going to lose me. If you even fucking care.