This was a long time in the making, and I never even saw it coming. I thought we'd been doing really well for the past few months. But Dave was right when he told me, only he knows what he's thinking. I supposed it all sort of culminated yesterday. "I honestly don't think it's gonna work out." The words I'm not supposed to ever hear from you. "But what about the... why did you let me get it if you still felt that way?" "You knew the consequences of your actions when you did that." "...Yeah, I thought we were going to be together forever." Crying in front a computer monitor hurts the eyes, and you end up spelling a lot of words wrong. "See you at work, by the way, do you have some of my CD's?" Love you too.

      "So what, we're done then?" "I don't know." Not an answer. In fact, the last straw. I have been ignored and treated like crap for three days. Everytime I tried to ask you why, you said it was nothing, and no, it had nothing to do with me. But I'm not stupid. If I'm the only one you're being like that to, then yeah, I'd day the problem is between you and me. And it was. And it's something I can do absolutely nothing about. "Are you leaving?" I fingered you and walked away and you didn't say anything. You didn't seem to know why I left. My entire world is falling apart and the best you can give me is, "I don't know." I just need some answers.

      Feels like I'm hanging on by a thread here. There's nothing I can do to change it. You came over last night. Touch either complicates problems, or helps solve them. So far, it hasn't done anything to help, but I guess we'll find out today. I would do anything for you, things that I don't want to do, and I guess it sucks. It's like, If I want to keep you, then I have to suck up everytime I want to say no, or I'll lose you. I know that doesn't sound right, but I can't lose you. This feels different. This feels wrong.
music. hawthorne heights - if only you were lonely