Friday, June 30, 2006
15 honest thoughts about 15 people

 1) We don't see each other all that often anymore, and I suppose we've grown apart. But everytime I see you, I remember what a special bond we have. You're an amazing friend and I'm glad I got to grow up alongside you. I wish you nothing but the best in whatever you do.

 2) You're like a brother to me. Always joking around and being the funny one. But I can tell how much you care about me. You worry about me when I'm on the wrong track. You ARE the brother I never had. And you're the best one I could ask for.

 3) I don't know how this works. We are completely different people. Sometimes I really think you hate me, it only supports that when you tell me that you do. And that really hurts, because I care about you and I want to be the cool, good example. But you're stuck up and it fucking pisses me off. You need to chill out. Have fun when you enter the real world. You know I'm here if you need me.

 4) It's weird how we could have not got along for so long. Now I tell you everything. You're pretty different from me, but you bring me out of my shell and show me things I didn't know about. It's not a bad thing, I'm glad it's you and not someone else. I really care about you, and I love being able to confide in you. I'm so proud of what you've accomplished.

 5) What happened between us happened for a reason. I DO love you a crazy amount. I don't know what's in store for us in the future, but I know that I've never wanted to take care of someone so badly before. Thank you for always caring about me and being there when I need that hug, even when I hurt you. I don't care what anyone else thinks, you are very very very special to me, and you'll always have a little piece of me.

 6) Things between us are getting scary now. I don't trust you anymore. It's like your turning into me, and trying to rebel or something. It's like you're throwing everything I've done back in my face. I don't even know what to do anymore. I feel like I'm stuck in some sort of game that you're playing. I can never tell what you're thinking, you never tell me anything anymore. It's ending just like every other time. I can't deal with it.

 7) I haven't known you all that long. First impressions can be deceiving. You're a nice person, but there's that 'something' about you that I just can't stand. You're just like a bunch of guys I dated in the past. I don't like competing for attention, so why don't you turn down the narcissism. It's not impressing me, but I'm always up for giving second chances.

 8) I suppose we're really only aqaintances, and we don't say much to each other, but the smile on your face and the hug you gave me brightened up my day. I just wanted you to know.

 9) We haven't spoken in a very long time. I'm okay now. I'm over it. It took a long time. I thought about you the other day, and I'm sad that we're not friends anymore. We shared a big part of growing up together, and I'd love if we could talk again. If you're reading this, just let me know how you're doing.

 10) You're crazy and it draws me to you! I feel like I've known you forever, it's the strangest sensation. I love how open we are. You make me laugh and are such a big goof, but whenever you see that I'm sad, you're there, holding your arms out and giving me a hug, rubbing my back, telling me I'll be okay. I feel so safe in your arms. I don't know how you can care so much about someone you don't really know, but you're wonderful.

 11) God, you look just like the one person I want to forget. It sucks. Everytime I look at you, I think of him. I'd like to hang out with you, but you're so quiet, I feel kinda awkward. You can be so reserved, but you have the same kind of humor as me. But still, things you say, things you do remind me of him, and it scares me so so much that maybe you're just like him.

 12) Thank God you have not bothered me in a while. There is no one I dislike more than you. Stay the hell away from me and stay out of my business. You don't know anything about life, and anything about me. You have no right to judge me, and it really just makes you look ridiculous. Nobody likes a hyprocrite, and sooner or later, your friends are gonna figure you out.

 13) You're a good friend, and very caring, but your dependency annoys me. I'm not trying to be condescending, but please, learn how to do things for yourself, have some pride in who you are. If something sucks, change it. You don't need anyone's help but your own. You're stronger than you think, and it's gonna be tough love until you understand that.

 14) I haven't seen you in years, but I try to follow whats going on with you whenever I can. It feels like whatever I say to you, no matter how vague, you know just what I mean. I'm so glad that you've decided to just be you, and let nothing get in the way of your happiness. I miss you so much, and I'm a little jealous too! If you ever need to talk to someone, I'm always here, and I always seem to understand you. I promise I'll visit soon!

 15) I worry about you. You make me smile, but you're having such a tough time it seems, lately. Just remember to trust your instincts. You deserve the best, kiddo. Find someone who treats you with respect, it doesn't have to mean they lavish you with gifts, you'll know when you've met your equal. Thanks for always thinking of me holding your rants back until after I've unloaded on you. You're a great listener.