Mhm, mhm, okay. So the sun is pretty much rockin. Tuesday or whenever was so hot, it was sooo nice. Today is my second day off this week. Chris and I went to get his car fixed this morning and we ate McDonalds. Annnd, then we were lazy, and I went to Janelle's and swam in the pool and suntanned, and now I am all sticky and such. I have short little arm hairs starting to grow out of my tattoo again. They look funny. Also, I want to get my next tattoo... soon, like next month. Polaris lyrics. Jimmy Eat World, anyone? 'they say that love goes anywhere, in your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there.' But I dunno how I wanna do that, so any suggestions, send 'em over.

      In other news, let's recap. My party went ahead as planned after I bribed my parents with one hundred dollars. Ah, the things I resort to. Anyways, thanks to everyone who came, and thank you to Chris and Josh for making me a wonderful Lunchables Pizza Cake. It was the best thing ever. Also, they got me my Tasha Place sign, which I have to figure out how to get the bolts off of. Ok, other than that, my party totally sucked. A few of my close friends came by, but everyone else (most of the people there) were friends of friends, aquaintances, or people I didn't know at all. It kinda sucked. Then there was some shit going down with some people wanting to beat up some other people and blah blah blah. Some ex-boyfriend of a friend showing up, my best friend leaving, me leaving. Yeah, it was pretty bad. When Seve finally got there, he had to drive people home, and then the party was pretty much over anyways. Josh was like falling over drunk. He almost fell down the stairs, and he fell into my shelf and gashed his face open and told Candace that I had slammed the door in his face. Yeah. Then Janelle, Frazer, and I crashed on my bed, and I was stressed out, and I couldn't breathe, and I was the only sober one all night.

      Ok, so you get the point. I didn't enjoy myself, and I don't think I'll ever be having a birthday party again, since none of my friends can be bothered to come. Bitter much? I'm over it. So anyways, that had been me hoping that my month would get better and it didn't and it has continued to stay that way. My car overheated again, and I guess the hole in the waterpump is back. I don't have the money to fix it right now cause I called ICBC and my insurance actually does cover that accident I got in, so I just have to pay back ICBC the twelve hundred, so that my insurance rate doesn't go up... again. That was fun. So yet again, I am car-less, and I drive for a living.

      Chris and I are planning our roadtrip to Medicine Hat soon. We're going in July, and we're going to make stops at you know, the important places, such as the Enchanted Forrest, West Ed Mall, etc. Truly beautiful places... Yep. I was supposed to go down to Pinnacle today to get a membership so I can get pumped up for school... but no car makes that a problem. Chris and I were gonna go down to Tranceformations and talk to Dave about our upcoming tattoo plans, but Chris has failed in the call-me-back department. Maybe I'll go for a run later, I'm not sure, I'd like to do it somewhere pretty though, no along the highway.

      In closing, I decided that I will probably take my paramedic course in Parksville instead of moving to New West, so that it will be cheaper, maybe I can finally move out, and so that I'll have a better chance of getting hired into Nanaimo when I grad. But yeah, there are no full time courses again this year it seems, so I don't know what to do... I was thinking Kelowna cause I want to live there so bad, but I have no idea who I would stay with for the four months. In other news, Alyssa is going to do the program too, but probably not with me since she can't get her class four for another month, and I get mine next month! Yayyy, finally, I have been waiting a year for this. Much love.

      Oh yes, and one more thing I forgot. My parents got home this afternoon from Vancouver and we were supposed to celebrate my birthday. Now, I'm not reallllly a materialistic person, whatever. Okay, so for my birthday, I was hoping I would get something useful, like say, some help with fixing my car. My mother picked me up this little giraffe? ornament from somewhere... I don't know what to do with it. I wish my parents knew me better. They would never get Kayley something useless because they know she doesn't have anything to do with it and will just get rid of it... which I will probably end up doing with this giraffe? shortly. So yeah, it's not that I'm like, it's not good enough. It's just why do they not make any effort to know me. Oh Tasha, we didn't get you any dinner because we know how much you hate chinese. What are you talking about? I love chinese... FUCK. My grandparents know me better than that. They get home this weekend. Thank God. Fireworks this Sunday, anyone?
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