You've only got one life, it's all you've got, so live it well, or you only live once, so do everything. Whichever advice you choose to follow. I don't even know where I'm going with that. Life is life. It's long, but not really in the grand scheme of things I suppose. You are generally unimportant. And that is not a nice thing to think about. So who really cares about your life, except for the people who are living at the same time you are. Maybe that right person isn't even alive right now. Maybe they aren't due for another thousand years. Who knows.

      I can hear my cat running around on the roof. Today I bought the 64 and it doesn't work. That's pretty gay, I got it working for a couple minutes, then it just quit, so I guess it's back into Stock Exchangers tomorrow for another one. Holy shit. I just had the most painful head rush right now. Holy shit, that was painful and quite scary. My head is so hot, I feel like shit. Pretty sure I'm getting sick again. Yay. I've been tired all the time, and eating an insane amount of food, and then feeling sick later. So, dunno what's wrong with me.

      Went into Culture Craze today. Syd was there, she told me I still work there, but whatever, Krystal got fired, thank God, and whatever. This isn't even important, so why am I writing about it. Chris just dropped me off at home so he could paint his room. Ran into Seve at Domino's. He's like seventeen and still in highschool and you know -- smokes pot everyday. So what am I looking for? You tell me, pretty sure I have no idea from one day to the next. My head feels like it's exploding.

      Keith keeps sending me fucking pointless text messages. I don't know why, he's barely spoken to anyone, and certainly not me since he's started whatevering with Katie. So you know, if someone wants to keep up a friendship with me, I don't want it to be through random text messages that say, "Do you like rim jobs." Real classy, Keith. I just called Josh to see what he was up to. He is at Ashley's or Loren's or something getting wasted. As usual I guess. Seriously I pick winners eh. Yeah pretty sure I possibly just having a shitty day. Maybe that's just the thing about being young and dating. Everyone drinks all the damn time, smokes weed like there's no tomorrow. Fuck. I barely ever drink now, I just can't do it. I'm not even going to bother smoking. I like you know -- being sober and cognitive and being in control of myself.

      Seriously, what am I getting out of all this? Yay for the most "important" people in my life being a bunch of... whatever. I guess my parents had it right with the not drinking or drugs and such. Whatever, I got my life experiences, but I suppose I expect too much from people my age. Everyone is shallow, fake, and living with no purpose. Fuck, everything just damn well pisses me off. I hate things with no purpose. Do something productive with your Goddamned lives. In other news, I made a... wow, I don't really feel like writing anymore. Matt Good concert got cancelled. I hate being bunched in with all the pathetic excuses for people out there. Too bad I'll probably never do anything about it.