Alyssa, Keith, and I have been hanging out lots. On Valentines Day, we hung out and went to Domino's until Chris got off school around ten. Then we went to Chris' house and watched Doom, which was okay. Then Chris kicked them out and we talked about some things and it was sad. Then I slept there, and made Chris late for school the next day. Oh right, and Chris came through my window on Valentines Day morning and brought me flowers. My first flowers ever. I was happy.

      Yesterday, Alyssa, Keith, and I watched the Exorcism of Emily Rose. It was disturbing and Josh and Chris scared me for the rest of the night when I went to Domino's. I went to Chris' house again cause I never see him unless he's at work or... we're falling asleep, but he wanted to sleep so I left. This morning, when I woke up, I felt so nausious, and I was throwing up, and this is my first time out of bed, and I'm still feeling really gross, so I think I'm going to go back to bed. I wish Chris would visit me or we could do something in the day, but he's too busy with school and work.

      My mom yelled at me today because she told me and Kayley to clean the living room and empty the dishwasher. I cleaned up everything that was mine out of the living room, and I asked Kayley to empty the dishwasher, which she didn't, and I got in trouble for. Then she yelled at me cause she told me to clean everything and I got really mad and told her she should clean up after herself. Like, it's gross stuff, like dried glue all over newspapers from her working around the house. I don't understand why I should have to clean that up. It makes me really mad. There's no food in the house and I'm really hungry but I have no money and my mom is still mad and she won't let me go get some dinner for the family or anything.

      Ok, and now I'm just working myself up, and maybe I'm PMSing... but no, that doesn't make any sense. But now I'm really upset and I think I'm going to be sick, and I want to see Chris, but I won't because he's always busy and I don't have the energy to stay up really late every night. I don't know what to do, so I'm just going to go back to bed or maybe fall asleep watching the cable we just got free for a month.
music. time to dance - panic! at the disco