And what I mean to say is I'm going to say some negative things on something I spoke highly about the other day. It's not usually like that, so I don't want anyone to think that.

      Last night Chris, Keith, Alyssa, and I went to Pita Pit. There was a Jewish guy working there. It was funny. Mostly because Jewish comments had been made prior to finding out about this dude. Good times. Ahh, hanging out with Alyssa again is so excellent. Dearest, how I've missed you! Don't leave me again. Also, Chris played a show in Chemainus which I went to last night. AND I got my hair cut. Kayley got a nice little bob thing going, and I chopped mine all off, so I have a nice brown faux-hawk now. Everyone seems to like it except for Chris. Which is fine, it will grow back, and I don't mind it. It's funky.

      Today I finished my Valentines Day stuff so I'm all done. I went to Domino's to hang out with Chris and Keith. Talked to Josh and Lorne about upcoming "events." Chris again is self admittadly getting burnt out from doing too much, and is tired slash grumpy. Or moody... or easily angered. I don't know. Anyways. He's taking jokes Keith and I are making to heart. When I asked him what was wrong. He said he was annoyed that I'm not affectionate to him when Keith is around, and that he's tired of 'Keith being a part of this relationship.' Or something to that effect. Anyways, that really hurt, because I value my friendship with Keith A LOT. We understand each other and I just love him. And I know that it makes Keith uncomfortable when I'm really affectionate to Chris when he's around. Which I completely understand. I would be the same way. You just need someone to tell you because I guess I'm blinded by love or something.

      Chris was saying that I wouldn't even hold his hand when the three of us were at the mall and whatnot. I don't even think about it. Like, I think I would have noticed if I told him to not hold my hand, or if I moved my hand away or something, but I didn't. Didn't even cross my mind. I don't see why we can't just hang out as friends when we're with friends. I mean, I see Chris by myself more than I see him with other people, and we've got all that time by ourselves to be affectionate. I don't WANT to be affectionate 24/7, and I value my friends and I don't WANT to make the feel uncomfortable or like a third wheel. Keith happens to be the one we hang out with most, and the only person who has said something to me. Which I totally respect. I would rather have someone say something and feel better than hate hanging out with me because they don't want to say something.

      Chris' comeback to that was that the time we spend together is at work with him, or basically falling asleep at the end of the day. Well... that's not my fault. I'm not working or going to school right now, I've got all the time in the world for him. He's busy all the time, and he's getting burnt out because of it. So... maybe he needs to slow down. That would fix his problems I think. Anyways, we were arguing without yelling in the car, and I just stopped talking because I thought I was going to start yelling, and he said to go ahead and scream at him like he was trying to pick a fight with me or something, which almost made me cry because that's what Phil would do to me all the time. Tell me to yell at him, so that I was the one starting the fight and it would be my fault. Well, we got back to Domino's and he just ignored me... it was pretty obvious he didn't plan on talking to me anymore, so I left. Keith came out and asked what was wrong and I told him, and he listened and made me feel better because he's funny.

      Anyways, Keith and I are going down to Victoria on Monday to pick up Alyssa. That should be fun. I can't get the song 'Call and Answer,' by Barenaked Ladies out of my head. It is excellent. So THANK YOU Geoff for dedicating it to me hahaha. Anyways, I have church tomorrow, so I should get to bed. Night :)
music. call and answer - barenaked ladies