About a year ago at work, Erin M, one of the merchandisers who is probably abouy thirty, told me that the reason I didn't have any "brownie points" with the bosses is cause it seemed like I didn't enjoy work and I didn't want to be there. Well, last night we were working together and she said that I seem a lot happier than I was back then and that it looks like I've done a complete turn-a-round.

      It made me so happy to hear that. I feel like I'm more comfortable in my skin now. Like I've realized that my happiness doesn't have to be hinged on one person or an event. Now that I've seperated those things, I'm extremely happy with my life and where it's going, but I also miss certain people. It makes me sad to think about them, but I no longer let it control my life. I don't think it means I'm getting over them, it just means my love for them is maturing.