How do I know if he really loves me this time. Haven't we already been over this, Tasha? Yes... but he does seem different this time. Course like he said, that's probably from the drugs. But I mean, he seems so... unemotional about some things. If he left me again, I don't know what I'd do... I wouldn't die. I would feel like I'm dying, and be more fucked up than I already am. It's almost ironic that they way I've become is because of him, and now it's causing problems... all this anger, sadness, insecurity is because of him and now they're directed at him.

      It's just I CAN'T lose him again. Just... fuck, I can't go back to being like that. My mom and Scheryl told me the other day that they noticed that I hadn't been happy like I am now for about a year. But, how do I know if he's lying to me this time around? And the thing we laughed off... that was really bugging me yesterday, but I can't really have a problem with that. Janelle says she can tell he loves me by the way he looks at me. What the hell. How can I ever be sure!? This is driving me crazy.

i just wanna tell you so you know... here i go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you, you are my only one! i let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do, you are my only, my only one!
music. only one - yellowcard