Right, so I'm at Dan's right now and we just finished watching 'Supersize Me.' It was pretty awesome. Next we shall have to see Farenheit 911. Gooo documentarys! In other news... I had like a third of the usual lemonade of mike's hardness that I usually had, and then I got up really fast after the movie and felt realllly bad. Sue (Dan's mom) wouldn't stop talking to me, so I finally made my way upstaires and was starting to stumble and just before I got to the bathroom, I crashed into the wall and blacked out. Yea... so, I'm thinking that's hopefully from getting up too fast. The last time that happened, I got up really fast in the morning cause I was late for school, I started sweating and overheating, then I blacked out at the top of the stairs. My mom didn't believe I was sick, even though I fell down a flight of stairs. Yes Mom, I'm just that good. Jeez.

      Joel and I watched 'Mean Girls' last night, that was kind of funny. And we... went rollerblading and then today before I left, I made him play guitar for me, then went on about my jealousy over his talent. Really. He's a cutie. A naiive, young, innocent cutie. That I really shouldn't go and see because I think I have corrupted him completely, and now he says he's going through Tasha withdrawl, and I don't think that exists. Really, I don't. So then I drove back to Nanaimo and that's about it for today. I had a crappy TV dinner... and yea. Some M&M's.

      Also, on the way back to Nanaimo, I was thinking about how I'm not sure if I wanna be with anyone right now, or if I just want to be by myself. Then I was wondering if 'the one' for me was someone I've already met, or someone I don't even know. There was a lot more thought put into it, but I don't really remember much since I'm tired. I think I was thinking, I need someone who isn't good, because I'm not good... I suppose in the sense of innocence or something. I don't want to mess up someone's first kiss with them thinking about all the boys I've kissed... which stands at three to date. Also... since things have happened in the relationship department... I'd really mess things up for someone who's never had a girlfriend. I'm not content with just holding hands anymore... it's just not exciting. Hell, I don't even think kissing someone else for the first time would really give me that whole stomach fluttering thing anymore. Which sucks. I've really messed things up for myself I guess. You-know-who burries himself into my mind all the time, but I do my best not to think about him... but I can't really control my dreams... although the other night, I did have one about Mark Beisel. That was weird. Anyways, it's getting late and I have to work tomorrow morning so I should go to bed. Actually, I should probably go home first. I think Dan fell asleep *as usual,* so I'll just let myself out.
music. easy target - blink 182