Monday, April 19, 2004
short sentances.
Yawn. It's Monday. Prom is on Saturday. That's in 5 days. The Canucks are losing. I have to get Nathan in 3 days. I don't know where he is. He hasn't called me. I wonder if he's coming. I had a hair appointment today. It was short. My hair is going to be in knots. I bought Live in Texas. Prom is in 5 days. Dear God. Prom is in 5 days. Erin and I were talking about it today. That was cool. We're renting Silence of the Lambs tonight. I'm so glad Alyssa is my best friend. She's so awesome. I don't think I've ever call her that. She is. Anyways. Prom. Argh. Nathan. Argh. Whatever. Argh.
tashalaughs AT 9:46 p.m.
Wow, this has become a dailey habit because... MY TEACHER WON'T GIVE ME ANY HELP IN THIS STUPID CLASS. But I finally figured some stuff out on my own today, but I'm stuck again.
Dan was reading through my whole journal backwards yesterday and he says I've changed a lot. I thought that was funny, how someone could notice that from things I've only been writing since... what? September 03?
Anyways, class is out in about 7 minutes, and then I only have lunch and two more classes to go, and then Dan is picking me up. Umm... oh right, my mum is going to get me some plaid material tomorrow and I'm going to make some comfy pajama pants! I'm excited!
Dan tooks pictures of Alyssa and I in the forrest yesterday... it was so cold! And I have red eyes in all of them, so I'll have to fix that... other than that, they were cute, good job Dan!
Well, everyone's lining up at the door... I want outta here, I have chocolate in my backpack and it's disappearing quickly... maybe I'll have Subway though.. mmm :) 9 days till Prom!
Edit: Guess where I am two hours later? The same room. I got some "help" on the flash stuff and now it's actually working fairly well, although some of it is still crapping out on me. Yea, wayy to much time in my least favourite class today. I want it to be 3 o'clock. Dan's picking me up. One more class to go! Yay! Unfortunatly, it's Civ... that class is really starting to bug me, although today I find out if I got an A or a C+! That should be interesting. I'll probably get yelled at for hanging stuff in late too. Oh well. An hour and a half to go.
Thursday, April 15, 2004
more school
Wow, this has become a dailey habit because... MY TEACHER WON'T GIVE ME ANY HELP IN THIS STUPID CLASS. But I finally figured some stuff out on my own today, but I'm stuck again.
Dan was reading through my whole journal backwards yesterday and he says I've changed a lot. I thought that was funny, how someone could notice that from things I've only been writing since... what? September 03?
Anyways, class is out in about 7 minutes, and then I only have lunch and two more classes to go, and then Dan is picking me up. Umm... oh right, my mum is going to get me some plaid material tomorrow and I'm going to make some comfy pajama pants! I'm excited!
Dan tooks pictures of Alyssa and I in the forrest yesterday... it was so cold! And I have red eyes in all of them, so I'll have to fix that... other than that, they were cute, good job Dan!
Well, everyone's lining up at the door... I want outta here, I have chocolate in my backpack and it's disappearing quickly... maybe I'll have Subway though.. mmm :) 9 days till Prom!
Edit: Guess where I am two hours later? The same room. I got some "help" on the flash stuff and now it's actually working fairly well, although some of it is still crapping out on me. Yea, wayy to much time in my least favourite class today. I want it to be 3 o'clock. Dan's picking me up. One more class to go! Yay! Unfortunatly, it's Civ... that class is really starting to bug me, although today I find out if I got an A or a C+! That should be interesting. I'll probably get yelled at for hanging stuff in late too. Oh well. An hour and a half to go.
tashalaughs AT 1:17 p.m.
Wow, I'm really bored. I'm in info tech right now, not doing anything as usual. School's done in 15 minutes thank God, then I get to go home! Yay! I sent out Nathan's bus garbage in the mail this morning, whopee. Man, I am so tired, or maybe I'm just really bored. Yea, I wouldn't be suprised.
I think I'll go to Shoppers tonight and get some of that make-up Robb used... he gave me a make-over haha, it was interesting. Uhh, yea, and I'll get some chocolate Caramilk eggs too cause they're soo good!
Man, I really gotta get working on something in this class... I was supposed to get help like an hour ago, but as usual, he tells me I should come in after school instead. Should I? ...Um... no. So, Alyssa and I are hopefully actually gonna go get some pictures taken of us either today or tomorrow in the forrest in our prom dresses. Wheee :) Maybe I'll post those on the webpage.
Oh yea, guess what I got!? A webcam! Yay! Now I can talk to people and they can look at me? Other than that, Kayley loves it and I'm charging her money to use it since I paid like $50 for it, I think that's fair. My teacher keeps walking over here and it's really annoying. Ten minutes. Prom's in 11 days. I think I'm as ready as I can be for this. Well... in most aspects as least I suppose.
Lalala, I have some homework tonight... Poetry in English, a chart on the Greeks for Civ, and yea, I really should do something in this class, but we all know I won't. In fact, I'll be suprised if I end up doing any of this homework tonight. I'd rather... go home and eat and stuff. Man I sound like a binger. I'm. really. not. fat. Seriously. Mmm, food, what was the last thing I ate though? Probably a chocolate egg and some chocolate milk. I think I'm addicted. Yawn.
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
really bored
Wow, I'm really bored. I'm in info tech right now, not doing anything as usual. School's done in 15 minutes thank God, then I get to go home! Yay! I sent out Nathan's bus garbage in the mail this morning, whopee. Man, I am so tired, or maybe I'm just really bored. Yea, I wouldn't be suprised.
I think I'll go to Shoppers tonight and get some of that make-up Robb used... he gave me a make-over haha, it was interesting. Uhh, yea, and I'll get some chocolate Caramilk eggs too cause they're soo good!
Man, I really gotta get working on something in this class... I was supposed to get help like an hour ago, but as usual, he tells me I should come in after school instead. Should I? ...Um... no. So, Alyssa and I are hopefully actually gonna go get some pictures taken of us either today or tomorrow in the forrest in our prom dresses. Wheee :) Maybe I'll post those on the webpage.
Oh yea, guess what I got!? A webcam! Yay! Now I can talk to people and they can look at me? Other than that, Kayley loves it and I'm charging her money to use it since I paid like $50 for it, I think that's fair. My teacher keeps walking over here and it's really annoying. Ten minutes. Prom's in 11 days. I think I'm as ready as I can be for this. Well... in most aspects as least I suppose.
Lalala, I have some homework tonight... Poetry in English, a chart on the Greeks for Civ, and yea, I really should do something in this class, but we all know I won't. In fact, I'll be suprised if I end up doing any of this homework tonight. I'd rather... go home and eat and stuff. Man I sound like a binger. I'm. really. not. fat. Seriously. Mmm, food, what was the last thing I ate though? Probably a chocolate egg and some chocolate milk. I think I'm addicted. Yawn.
tashalaughs AT 2:45 p.m.
Maybe if I just choose to be with neither one, than everything will be ok. Yea haha, I think I'm going crazy, I really do. I've been listening to the same song for an hour, and going over this in my mind. Over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over. Then I wrote an essay which is quite simply, kick ass. HAHAHA, If I don't choose, then there's no problem, I mean, I might be miserable but that's ok right, as long as everyone else is happy? No, but this really might work. I'm kind of excited about this one. Hahahaha, it's so stupid and crazy it just might work! I'm going crazy, when you can't think straight and you dwell on this, you tend to go a little crazy. Hahaha, I'm going to make EVERYONE happy and I'm going to be the most miserable person you have ever met. BECAUSE THIS WORLD IS SCREWED UP. Or maybe I'm the one who's so messed up. I just wanted to be loved...
music. head club - taking back sunday
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
the choice
Maybe if I just choose to be with neither one, than everything will be ok. Yea haha, I think I'm going crazy, I really do. I've been listening to the same song for an hour, and going over this in my mind. Over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over. Then I wrote an essay which is quite simply, kick ass. HAHAHA, If I don't choose, then there's no problem, I mean, I might be miserable but that's ok right, as long as everyone else is happy? No, but this really might work. I'm kind of excited about this one. Hahahaha, it's so stupid and crazy it just might work! I'm going crazy, when you can't think straight and you dwell on this, you tend to go a little crazy. Hahaha, I'm going to make EVERYONE happy and I'm going to be the most miserable person you have ever met. BECAUSE THIS WORLD IS SCREWED UP. Or maybe I'm the one who's so messed up. I just wanted to be loved...
music. head club - taking back sunday
tashalaughs AT 9:35 a.m.
Guess what!? 12 days until prom! I've got my purple dress, my purple barbells, my choker, um my hair thingies, and my clear shoes :) Yay! I'm getting so excited! Whee, my hair appointment is in um a week, and then it'll be less than a week before prom time! So I guess I'm going to go and get Nathan myself now. He's away in Seattle this weekend I think. So righto, I'm gonna give him a call either today or tomorrow cause a) I want to talk to him and b) she said he had something to tell me. Blah blah blah, I'm bored right now. Candace, Adam, and Rob are over. I interrogated Rob about taking Kayley to prom in June. I think I may have scared him... but probably not.
Monday, April 12, 2004
prom basically
Guess what!? 12 days until prom! I've got my purple dress, my purple barbells, my choker, um my hair thingies, and my clear shoes :) Yay! I'm getting so excited! Whee, my hair appointment is in um a week, and then it'll be less than a week before prom time! So I guess I'm going to go and get Nathan myself now. He's away in Seattle this weekend I think. So righto, I'm gonna give him a call either today or tomorrow cause a) I want to talk to him and b) she said he had something to tell me. Blah blah blah, I'm bored right now. Candace, Adam, and Rob are over. I interrogated Rob about taking Kayley to prom in June. I think I may have scared him... but probably not.
tashalaughs AT 12:52 p.m.
Crap! I think I'm gonna be getting a referral from Mr. Arruda for missing so many civ classes... there goes my perfect student record. Oh well, I'll use my marks for leverage. Heh heh heh, I'm horibble. Not doing homework and still getting straight A's is like... the best thing ever. I still haven't figured out how the heck that works though :P
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Thursday, April 08, 2004
cough cough *referrals*
Crap! I think I'm gonna be getting a referral from Mr. Arruda for missing so many civ classes... there goes my perfect student record. Oh well, I'll use my marks for leverage. Heh heh heh, I'm horibble. Not doing homework and still getting straight A's is like... the best thing ever. I still haven't figured out how the heck that works though :P
tashalaughs AT 11:18 a.m.
So, shopping was fun. Alyssa, Dan, and I ended up going. Alyssa was actually speaking to Dan again, which was good. Hmm, we were there for like four hours, pathetic eh? Hahaha, what did I buy? Well for prom, I got my shoes from the warehouse. They're awesome! They're clear with these little jewels on the toe strap! Whee :) I also go this cute little simple silver choker for my necklace, these spiral things for my hair (which is going to be in knots) and I got my purple barbell earings to go with my dress. They're sparkly! I'm wearing them right now cause I felt like it.
And since I had money left over... I bought two shirts from Thrifteys. One is turquoise and "vintage" Daytona 88 hahaha, I love that. The other is black, and says "I'm with him -->" It's sweet. And I got a little beige cord skirt from Urban Planet. Oh right, and then we went underwear shopping, but I won't go into detail haha :) So yea, that was shopping. I think Alyssa bought a shirt, and Dan got some sandals, not then ones we liked though, cause he thought that they looked like old man sandals.
Right, so then we came home and had pizza for dinner. That was around 8 hahaha, then Dan and I watched the Matrix Revolutions on my little DVD player, hahaha, the res was so bad. But it's such a goood movie! Almost only two weeks until prom! I'm so excited. Ill go into detail maybe some other time on how I found out Nathan is coming *for sure* now. I hope so. So, I think everything is going well. I just have to put aside like $50 for my hair (!!) and give quite a large sum of money to Tim cause I'm gonna owe him like over a hundred bucks very soon. Oh right, and I wanna get rid of my shift the Friday before Prom too.
Hahaha, and on Prom day, before we go out and get pictures, Alyssa and me are going to go to Shoppers in our dresses and see my mom and get pictures with her. It figures she would be working that day! But ahh! It's going to be weird walking into work wearing my prom dress! Hahaha, yea that'll be interesting in front of all the customers. She'll probably just ignore us until she's not busy! Ahh, this is so exciting, we're gonna have so much fun! I'm so glad Alyssa's coming, it's gonna be way better with her and Tim there.
Right, so there's the plan I think. Nothing else? No... I think I'm doing my own make-up... (If I wear ANY as usual hahaha) Man, whee, I love my dress but it's a little high in the back so I'm gonna so if my mom can sew it down a bit. Shoot. Does this mean I actually have to shave my legs again? The last time I did I cut myself along the main artery and it bled forever hahahah, that was interesting. "Tasha, you have your period from you leg!" (courtesy of Candace)
That's all!
WE WON'T STAND FOR HAZY EYES ANYMORE
I think I'm going shopping with Alyssa today. Dan wants to come too, but I don't know how well that's gonna go over with Lys. Hmm, I'm gonna get some sweet purple barbell earings. I can't be too sweet can I? Hahaha, and I'm gonna get some clear shoes... wow me in heels, scary thought. What was the last thing? Oh right, I'm getting a necklace too. A nice one from Bryans, same as my dress. Yea, so I'll be spending a bit of money today hehehe ;)
Righto, then tonight Dan and I are going to watch the Matrix Revolutions. (the best movie in the trilogy I think, even better than the first, but maybe I'm crazy) Anywho, I just bought that DVD yesterday, lurvely. And I had to ask for some time off too cause Karina's birthday is on June 19th! It's coming up so fast, I can't believe she's getting married hahaha :P What do you get someone for a wedding gift? Maybe I'll buy them a toaster? Hahaha ;)
That's what girl's dreams are made of!
This is me with the words on the tip of my tongue, and my eye through the scope down the barrel of a gun!
Hold your breath because you'll only make things worse!
music. taking back sunday
Hmm, this weekend seemed so long! Dan wasn't talking to me really, and he had friends visiting, so I actually had to go out attempt to have fun by myself. (which doesn't usually work too well) So anyways, I went bike riding for like three hours and almost ended up killing myself in the process. I did a lot of running and went for some walks, bought some chocolate milk. (the milk was the highlight of my weekend)
So now, back at school, not doing homework. But I get off on Thursday and don't go back until Tuesday cause it's Easter long weekend thank God. It's nice out again today... but I'm so tired, I might just go to bed ;)
CAN'T YOU SEE THAT EVERYTHING IN HERE IS ABOUT YOU!? DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND THAT EVERY SONG I SING IS FOR YOU. ALL THIS PAIN I FEEL IS BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
I can't even look at a picture of him without my throat tightening up and my heart beating faster suddenly. It's painful to miss him like this. To just want to be near him and talk to him... when I know I can't. Don't cry at school. Don't cry at school. Don't cry at school.
If You're Not the One
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with...
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
shopping and stuff
So, shopping was fun. Alyssa, Dan, and I ended up going. Alyssa was actually speaking to Dan again, which was good. Hmm, we were there for like four hours, pathetic eh? Hahaha, what did I buy? Well for prom, I got my shoes from the warehouse. They're awesome! They're clear with these little jewels on the toe strap! Whee :) I also go this cute little simple silver choker for my necklace, these spiral things for my hair (which is going to be in knots) and I got my purple barbell earings to go with my dress. They're sparkly! I'm wearing them right now cause I felt like it.
And since I had money left over... I bought two shirts from Thrifteys. One is turquoise and "vintage" Daytona 88 hahaha, I love that. The other is black, and says "I'm with him -->" It's sweet. And I got a little beige cord skirt from Urban Planet. Oh right, and then we went underwear shopping, but I won't go into detail haha :) So yea, that was shopping. I think Alyssa bought a shirt, and Dan got some sandals, not then ones we liked though, cause he thought that they looked like old man sandals.
Right, so then we came home and had pizza for dinner. That was around 8 hahaha, then Dan and I watched the Matrix Revolutions on my little DVD player, hahaha, the res was so bad. But it's such a goood movie! Almost only two weeks until prom! I'm so excited. Ill go into detail maybe some other time on how I found out Nathan is coming *for sure* now. I hope so. So, I think everything is going well. I just have to put aside like $50 for my hair (!!) and give quite a large sum of money to Tim cause I'm gonna owe him like over a hundred bucks very soon. Oh right, and I wanna get rid of my shift the Friday before Prom too.
Hahaha, and on Prom day, before we go out and get pictures, Alyssa and me are going to go to Shoppers in our dresses and see my mom and get pictures with her. It figures she would be working that day! But ahh! It's going to be weird walking into work wearing my prom dress! Hahaha, yea that'll be interesting in front of all the customers. She'll probably just ignore us until she's not busy! Ahh, this is so exciting, we're gonna have so much fun! I'm so glad Alyssa's coming, it's gonna be way better with her and Tim there.
Right, so there's the plan I think. Nothing else? No... I think I'm doing my own make-up... (If I wear ANY as usual hahaha) Man, whee, I love my dress but it's a little high in the back so I'm gonna so if my mom can sew it down a bit. Shoot. Does this mean I actually have to shave my legs again? The last time I did I cut myself along the main artery and it bled forever hahahah, that was interesting. "Tasha, you have your period from you leg!" (courtesy of Candace)
That's all!
tashalaughs AT 11:03 a.m.
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Wednesday, April 07, 2004
Shopping and Karin's Wedding
I think I'm going shopping with Alyssa today. Dan wants to come too, but I don't know how well that's gonna go over with Lys. Hmm, I'm gonna get some sweet purple barbell earings. I can't be too sweet can I? Hahaha, and I'm gonna get some clear shoes... wow me in heels, scary thought. What was the last thing? Oh right, I'm getting a necklace too. A nice one from Bryans, same as my dress. Yea, so I'll be spending a bit of money today hehehe ;)
Righto, then tonight Dan and I are going to watch the Matrix Revolutions. (the best movie in the trilogy I think, even better than the first, but maybe I'm crazy) Anywho, I just bought that DVD yesterday, lurvely. And I had to ask for some time off too cause Karina's birthday is on June 19th! It's coming up so fast, I can't believe she's getting married hahaha :P What do you get someone for a wedding gift? Maybe I'll buy them a toaster? Hahaha ;)
This is me with the words on the tip of my tongue, and my eye through the scope down the barrel of a gun!
Hold your breath because you'll only make things worse!
music. taking back sunday
tashalaughs AT 2:41 p.m.
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Tuesday, April 06, 2004
The Weekend
Hmm, this weekend seemed so long! Dan wasn't talking to me really, and he had friends visiting, so I actually had to go out attempt to have fun by myself. (which doesn't usually work too well) So anyways, I went bike riding for like three hours and almost ended up killing myself in the process. I did a lot of running and went for some walks, bought some chocolate milk. (the milk was the highlight of my weekend)
So now, back at school, not doing homework. But I get off on Thursday and don't go back until Tuesday cause it's Easter long weekend thank God. It's nice out again today... but I'm so tired, I might just go to bed ;)
tashalaughs AT 2:21 p.m.
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Friday, April 02, 2004
All For You
CAN'T YOU SEE THAT EVERYTHING IN HERE IS ABOUT YOU!? DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND THAT EVERY SONG I SING IS FOR YOU. ALL THIS PAIN I FEEL IS BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
tashalaughs AT 12:28 p.m.
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This Hurts
I can't even look at a picture of him without my throat tightening up and my heart beating faster suddenly. It's painful to miss him like this. To just want to be near him and talk to him... when I know I can't. Don't cry at school. Don't cry at school. Don't cry at school.
tashalaughs AT 12:24 p.m.
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If You're Not the One
If You're Not the One
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with...
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
tashalaughs AT 12:03 p.m.
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