BUT LONG BEFORE, HAVING HURT, I'D SEND THE PAIN BELOW! I'D SEND THE PAIN BELOW... MUCH LIKE SUFFOCATING!

      Man, I really need Nathan to come down. This whole thing is hurting so much that it's actually turning into physical pain. This is the first time I've had this much physical pain over him. I need him to come down here next month. I don't know what I'm gonna do if he can't come. Like this is the one thing we've planned for over a year. It has to happen. I'm gonna be a wreck if it doesn't. I will go up and get him if I have to.