This is too much. I keep having these crazy dreams that he shows up at school, at work, in the street. I don't remember what he feels like anymore... or the way he kisses... I can barely even remember what his voice sounds like, and yet everything about him is always echoing in my mind

      Honestly, I'm really sick of relationships right now. Or maybe I just don't think I'll ever really be happy with anyone but Nathan. I'm not happy now... I think I am for a little while, but then I realize I'm really not.