I just started crying for no reason... I feel like dying. I hate this, I hate it! I hate everything! Why does everything have to hurt so much, and why did you have to go away and leave me here, and why am I so selfish, but I'm not... cause really, I just love you so damn much that everything I do hurts me. I hate writing this. I don't want anyone but you to read it. But it's so hard to be away from you. Just LEAVE ME ALONE. I'm not who you think I am. This doesnt make any sense and I don't care, nothing makes sense right now. I just really need you here and that's all. I just need you here so bad and then everything will be ok. ONE THING and it would be ok, I would be fine, I wouldn't feel this. YOU'RE CONFUSING ME! I can't stop, I don't know what to feel or what to do and you won't even talk to me. I just love you so much I don't know what to do anymore... you were the only one left I could depend on, I could trust myself with and now you're gone and I don't know what to do...