Yea, so I ended up talking to N last night and things didn't go too well. Yea I don't think I'll even go in to what was said. Except that I don't know how things can ever work out between us now. Pretty sure it's impossible. Like I just don't understand how he could take back some of the stuff he said. It's like I found out he was a whole differant person. Like everything in the past 10 months had been a lie. Then he said the only thing he was scared of was losing me... Ok I fought through so much to be with this kid, only to find out the truth now. I shouldn't have trusted him all those times. God, he even made me cry if that's any indication of harsh the stuff was. I can't believe it, I'm gonna see him on Friday, and he blows me away with this. I don't even know what to think right now.