Things are differant now, we don't talk anymore... it bites. I don't want him to treat me any differantly, cause I don't think of him any differantly than I did before. Still have our picture in a frame above my bed. Still have "the N box" :P, and I still think about him like crazy!

      It's almost like I don't want anything to be differant, but I know that because of those words I said, it will be. I just hope I know when the right time is for things to start again... and I hope it's soon. I can't wait for the first meet in Mission of all places. He's not in quizzing... I probably won't be, depends... maybe I'll do the first quiz. I wanna kick some Moore butt again!

      Anyways I'm sick as nothing else today. My mom didn't believe me until I told her how I threw up at school three times. That was pretty gross. So yea, I think I'm dying or something... just kiddin. Hmm, I'm in a pretty good mood. Just miss N a lot as usual. Ahh, how long will I have to wait!? He better still be my prom date. Hahaha ;)