Ok, this might be a relatively short post since I dunno how long my typing skills can hold out against these cookies. They're already fading, not gonna lie. So pretty sure after work, me, Josh, and Seve went to Loren's house and I ate a very tasty gingerbread cookie and had a blue hawaiian. They were delicious. Uhhh, so news in short. I got my ears stretched for the last time for a while. They are now sitting at a 1/2" which was my goal, after the 0g goal. Oh well, nobody remembers that goal anyways.

      Andy definately broke up with me even though I said I didn't want to. Definately upset about that because I did and do still really like him. Which everyone thinks is ridiculous. I remember I said that if things didn't work out with Andy, then I was staying single for a while. Which is still the plan. Fuck, this font is weird? Cookies. Anyways. Uhh, I got an awesome leopard print shirt and I felt like a cougar at the bar. Went to Seventy on Friday. Danced it up. Jordan fucking Robertson from high school was there and trying to seduce me. Very funny. Josh ended up with Jordan's phone by the end of the night, so we met up today at Tranceformations to give it back to him. I'm just gonna assume he doesn't remember anything. Saw Erica, or 'Vag' there too. That was pretty awesome.

      So yeah, not really much going on, except might be an '86 Jetta, Alyssa is almost four and a half months, I really miss/want Andy, stretched my ears, want a new tattoo, discovered the blue hawaiian, want Andy back, annnnd ate a cookie for the first time and it's rather disappointing actually. Oh well. Oh right, Shiny Toy Guns is a fucking awesome electronica/rock back. Everyone go listen to their myspace. Start with Le Disko and move on to the rest. Bedtime. Ps. I got my class five, it was fucking easy.
music. shiny toy guns - we are pilots





      Well. I think this post will be all about Andy unless I remember something else slightly important to say. Pretty sure last time I posted he was ignoring me. Well, we eventually talked and he was mad cause he thought I was ignoring him and that I hadn't said goodbye last time we were together. Which isn't true, he just didn't hear me. So I sucked it up and apologized for my part, and all he said was apology accepted, even though he ignored me right back.

      Anyways everyday since then, I text him and rarely get one back. He used to text me a bunch of sweet little messages everyday, but now, when he actually answers, it's short. He rarely picks up my calls. He doesn't stop by to see me at work anymore, and he used to like, everyday. He doesn't ask me to stop by after work anymore. I ask him what's wrong when I go and find him, and he says nothing. He's always busy with his friends, never has time to see me, doesn't seem very interested in my company anyways. But everytime I ask, he says everything is fine and he would tell me if something was wrong. I'm so confused, I don't even know what to think. Anybody have advice or an opinion on this one? I have no idea what to do. I really like him, and I don't know what's going on.
music. unsent - alanis morissette





      Well, apparently bad things come in threes. Not so. They come in large costco-size packages as well. I ditched my car, the boys helped me get it out. My CD's got stolen out of my car because someone didn't lock the passenger side door after I asked them to. That's like 150-200 CD's. All my fucking CD's are gone. Then I lost my wallet. Then ICBC sent me a letter notifying me that buddy I backed into last May has now claimed it or whatever, and I have thirty days to pay $1200 to ICBC. I had to cancel my road test because of snow and other things, I have a speeding ticket to pay or possibly lose my liscense because of it. Just-- argh. And I'm broken up still over this fucking business that I don't EVEN want to talk about. Because I said I was over it. And it fucking bugs me still. A lot. I'm told I'll be fired every other day because I have a problem that the manager's brother gets away with shit nobody else does. Sucks being the one employee willing to stand up to boss-man. Everyone else just talks about him behind his back. Apparently I'm anemic, which is where my craving for raw broccoli is coming from. Would also explain why I feel like napping every couple of hours. Just I feel so fucking wasted. Andy is fucking moody. I don't know if I see it going anywhere. I feel slightly overwhelmed by everything lately. My mom is constantly on my case about my bills and the ever-mysterious 'money i owe her,' (although she can never tell me why?) Something good has to happen now, right? Please?
music. sweet escape - gwen stefani feat. akon





      So it's like everything is a haze. Everything with Chris is this thing that doesn't even seem very real to me anymore. When we were happy is this far off thing, some distant memory. And when it got bad, well it doesn't even seem like that was real anymore. It just kind of makes me sad. And now with Andy, it's like we've known each other for years, we're just that comfortable together. But I can't really remember things being this good... and so I am having so much trouble grasping this idea that I'm happy, that there are no problems, that this person feels the same way about me as I do about them. It seems so strange. I suppose that's what I meant by too good to be true. I feel like I'm in a dream, that I'm not really living at all. All these things have happened in this incredibly short time span. I'm having so much trouble knowing what to make of it. I am so wary of this happiness that I was not expecting. I think I may have unintentionally put up walls. I don't know. I am so confused... but I'm okay with that.
music. new kid - finch





      Soo... last night on my way to Seventy, I got a speeding ticket. I'm not going to say how fast I was going. Well, I can't, I have no idea and the cop didn't tell me. Needless to say he let me off with the minimum charge, but thats too many points on my liscense, so I'll lose that and now I can't get into my paramedics program for five years now. This sucks ass. HOWEVER. My class five is this Thursday. If I pass, they can't take my liscense. If I dispute my ticket, I might still be able to get into my program, and not ruin my life. I hope this works. I think I'm going to go to the copshop tomorrow and see if I can talk to the officer about the situation. I think I might get some leway considering it's school related. Hopefully.

      In other news, Andy asked me out.. this morning. I am le tres excited! Things are going really well and still VERY slow. Amazingly slow, I can't even believe it hahaha :) It's good though. I most definately bought an "aerobics pole" from Stock Exchangers today. Yes. Plain english, it's a stripper pole, so I will have a new talent soon. It will be amazing. Then I will offer lessons to my friends who are female. And maybe Chris. Nevermind, I don't really like Chris, therefore, I do not really want to see him outside of work. I hope he quit-quits soon. He's still there. Chris, though, would be a good pole dancer I bet, since gaydar goes off when he's around.

      Uhh, in other news... I don't remember. Oh right, I'm going for coffee with Emerson soon. Cooool. And it's Philma's birthday today and I ran into him at the mall. Where I spent some money on some cute shoes and a shirt... there goes my car insurance money. FUCK. MONEY IS EVIL! The mall is the root of all evil. Uh, yeah. Working all night tonight and I am sleepy and have a tummyache cause I stayed at Andy's last night and he snores and steals blankets. So I was awake and I ate some chocolate and watched Fight Club.
music. maneater - nelly furtado